The New and Last Semester in NUS
Jan 11So it's a brand new semester all over again. But this time, it's gonna be the last semester (I HOPE SO!).
With tears trickling down my cheek, a small grin on the face and a raised eyebrow to confirm the fake tears, I start reviewing the courses I take this semester.
I'm glad, after all, knowing that this might be the only semester in which most, or maybe all of the modules are not forced towards me, but what I actually like.
- PC1327/GEK1519 Science of Music
- GEM1501 Problem Solving For Computing
- CN5181 Computer Aided Chemical Engineering
- CN4120R Design Project
But it's not all dancing in the clouds too as there are some sacrifices that I have to make.
One of the hardest decision is to take Computer Aided Chem E which schedule is Friday night, meaning I have to miss almost every single NUS-ISCF fellowship sessions.
I am sure that I will never forgive myself if I do not give my best from the very start to the very end for all these modules.
Well, I also need to come to school almost everyday. And, I'm gonna force myself to stop being too comfortable at home, away from school, studies and the society. I just need to fight these well, and end it well too.
Yes, I have my ups and downs all four years in NUS. And I fear the outcome of this 4 year study. Will I graduate and make my parents proud? Will I get a job after graduation? Will my university time be marked as "failed" by myself, or friends, or family? I really don't know. As all these thoughts race all over my brain, I calmed myself down and reminded myself that I should let go of the past, the complacency, the disappointments and failures. After all, I'm not working hard to serve men, myself, parents' expectations or what others think about me, but God and God alone. I commit myself this last semester not only to fight hard in my studies, but also to depend hard on Him.
Ah, and I get stressed out extremely easily with little things and I get sick easily with big things 
Those that know me well, know that I have those tendencies. I used to see that as one of my weaknesses. For now, it's still my weakness, but I would like to see it this way too: I am granted the stress and the sickness such that I stop being ignorant, not responsive or plain negative when problems come. I'm kinda forced to learn to respond not only in the right way, but also at the right time (which means as soon as the problem strikes). I guess if whenever problem comes, I stay lazy, unresponsive, using stress as my excuse not to do anything and even if I later on 'learn' and get back on my feet. I've basically never learnt at all.
And lastly, I think I should start being more organized. Starting with the little things.
Great, a rather positive post to start the new semester!
Not as unwise but as wise
May 01It's strongly amusing, sometimes disturbing, how certain Bible verses that you've read over and over again and even considered it as 'what a cliche!' can at times bring a deep rebuking towards yourself. As if the words are not immaterial, not dead, but speaking to me in different situation and period. Waaa. Well, no surprise, isn't that why it is called the Word of Life?
Today, it's Eph. 4:15-17
"Look carefully then how you walk, not as unwise but as wise, making the best use of the time, because the days are evil. Therefore do not be foolish, but understand what the will of the Lord is."
Since I've just finished my 'exam' and I have trouble sleeping, I have decided to, yea you've guessed it, wallpaper it!
So grab it here, only 1280x960 available though...
Preview?
Another one…
Mar 19Sometimes in life we get too excited or even overwhelmed with our daily activities, doing the things we love, the things we hate, getting busy all day and it's just as if doing nothing is a huge crime. Somewhere along our day to day activities, we lost sight of why we are doing all those, why are we working so hard? why do we aim for good grades? why are we earning so much money? or why do we JUST have to do something? It is a terrible ignorance to brush these thoughts off by saying "I'm just doing for the sake of it". People need to think and reflect on their lives lest they grow old, look back and regret. The point of no return.
Yes, I am refering to myself here. I need to stop and relook at my original motivation in doing things. Why is doing things so important to me. Along that line, I remember this verse from the Bible. It may be a cliche to most Christians, but maybe it is the least understood, or the hardest to obey.
So, along that line again, I made up this simple wallpaper, clearer on full view, and as usual 1280*800 and 1280*960 for widescreen and non-widescreen. I love how mac comes with a desktop where we can have changing wallpapers for a specified time without any additional programs and stuff, this makes me even more motivated to make more wallpapers. I hope with this we can all be reminded of what is supposed to be our "aim" in life.
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2 Timothy 2:1
Mar 17Quoting Spurgeon in his Morning and Evening, March 15, Evening:
CHRIST has grace without measure in Himself, but He hath not retained it for Himself. As the reservoir empties itself into the pipes, so hath Christ emptied out His grace for His people. “Of His fulness have all we received, and grace for grace.”
A special wallpaper inspired by this passage, available in 2 sizes, 1280*800 and 1280*960. Full view please. For more sizes and colours, please request in the comment section, or talk to me directly. Thanks.
A quick slideshow for an idea about the colours
I've also managed to create the iPhone wallpaper version for this in four colours: red, blue, green and of course yellow.
And a quick horizontal slideshow:
Download here (right click save as):
Red
Blue
Green
Yellow
